Mindful of questions and teacher in my soul...
Not like I don’t know what is happening or where I m going. I do know very well and definitely know that it will be gone, sooner or later. Such a bad painful feeling...but I have seen the worse. I hate myself because my experience doesn’t help me when I need it most.
It affects all of us in our life sometime. I realize that I have been in my own shoes so many times that I can understand my own situation like no other.
All what I m trying to say is Infatuation; happens to all of us but never last. If it continues it turns into love which is different than former. And I feel miserable. Miserable because I wasn't prepared for this (I never was). It hit me hard and now I can't think of anything else but what just happened to me.
And sharing doesn't help either as it just makes you think more and that sucks too. So I decided to keep myself happier than the feeling how miserable I am now.
But then I ask myself too; why can't I just be normal? I mean what is wrong in being normal? Why I have to be "HAPPY"? May be I m trying too hard to be happy.
But I can't help this feeling of liking some one that too - one sided. But then I think it’s good too, coz if my entire crush turns out to be successful or mutual, I’ll be a whore- man whore. I fall too much into this crush thing (read crap).
By the way if someone reads my page would say- may be some teenage virgin has doodled something...
